your part

Hush

Last week I wrote about the contributions others make to our work as writers. This week, I want to say something about what we do.

Apart from actually sitting down in front of the keyboard and pounding out words, the hardest part of writing is the mind game. There might as well be a demon hunched on your shoulder. He leans forward, his ragged lips mere centimeters from your ear, and whispers with hot, moist breath. He says your work is shit. Worthless. Garbage. He insists you’re a hack. No one will want to read this drivel. He wonders aloud how much time you’ve wasted in this pointless pursuit. “When,” he demands, “will you wake up? When will you stop this nonsense?”

And there are days when you listen to him. Don’t.

The mind game is intense. Even with all the support and encouragement I wrote about last week, no one else can tell that demon to shut the hell up. Only you.

And how do you tell the demon to zip it?

“This is how you do it: you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until its done. It’s that easy, and that hard.”

– Neil Gaiman

You write.

You ignore his foul breath, his claws digging into your shoulders, and his scratchy voice. You let his proclamations of your inevitable failure fall on deaf ears. You redouble your own efforts, investing yourself more fully in your characters, your stories. You allow the act of writing to become a reward in and of itself. Who cares if you even get published? You’re already in a rare class. You’re a writer, damn it. That means something.

It’s that easy, and that hard.

It’s also worth it. Only writers too cowardly to tackle worthwhile content don’t struggle with self doubt. The very fact that you have such fears confirms that you are most certainly not a hack. Very, very few of us are Dostoyevsky, but that’s okay. Aspire to be the best writer you can be and avoid the temptation to grade yourself by comparison. Know that you write because you have a story to tell, and that is a noble thing.

Tell your stories. Write, even as the demon tells you not to. Ignore his hissing and find the courage to believe in yourself.

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About Ash Martin
Ash Martin writes dark fantasy and horror, has a thing for classic monster legends, Nordic mythology, coffee, and sarcasm, and is currently working on multiple books.

4 Responses to your part

  1. Great post! It’s SO hard to ignore that little demon/devil sometimes … all the encouragement in the world can’t help during those times. It’s nice to know that I am not alone (and yes, it feels like that, too, sometimes) and that others doubt themselves as much as I do.

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    • dex says:

      You’re so not alone. I think every writer feels some measure of this. For some of us, it can get overwhelming. When it gets to be so much I simply can’t write, I read. Weirdly, the act of reading seems to recharge me and make me want to write.

      But I think the best thing, when we can manage it, is to write through it. To defy that feeling. To pound our keyboards in spite of it.

      Thanks for reading and for chiming in! 🙂

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  2. For me, it’s one of the tentacled arms that dangles from the snarly octopus that is depression. Believing that the way you say something is insignificant and pointless—believing everything you write is juvenile and mundane—I wrestle with this daily.

    I too, take comfort in your post and knowing that this happens to others, although I don’t wish it upon my worst enemy.

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